Everything in life runs on fuel. Our cars, or gas guzzling SUV's, run on gasoline. Our bodies need energy from food. My laptop needs that electrical outlet or the battery will only last so long. My phone needs a new source of energy as the battery for that doesn't want to last long at all. I NEED that pot of coffee in the morning to get going. We all need that source of energy. But what really drives our lives, what fuels your fire?
As I looked back through a lot of my old blog posts, on top of reading all the other blogs in my roll, I realized that my desires and goals I have change - constantly. My blog is like ADD on hyper-caffeinated coffee... I've blogged about running, scrapbooking, writing, working, being a mom, being a wife, trying to organize a lot of things (usually unsucessfully), about volunteering and running our youth football league. It all sort of started feeling like there were bits of "me" in a lot of areas, which I don't deny. I do love to do a lot of different stuff. Do I spread myself to thin? Probably. Would I get more scrapbooking done if I quit reading in the evening? Most likely. Would my house be more organized if I gave up volunteering? Definitely. And the list goes on.
But however I decide to focus my energy, I need that fuel, that ambition to conquer the feat at hand. I trained for a 1/2 marathon and survived. I set a goal of scrapbooking 100 double page layouts this year... while also still training for another 1/2 marathon. I have a new job, with more work, but for a much better company. I have three kids in 8 sports combined, and a husband that coaches 2 of them. I am on the boards of two youth football leagues and volunteer for many a middle school concession stand, dance, or field trip... Busy isn't even close to describing our lives at times, but where is that fuel?
How in the world do I keep motivated in so many areas all at one time? Maybe it's the changing scenery, the lack of boredom that allows me to keep going. I don't know what to do when I'm bored, other than read, and I'm not ever bored, because I read in those 5 minutes of down time. My book goes with me everywhere, I squeeze in a few pages while doing the pickup line at school. A few pages while making dinner. Why is it that I feel I must multi task, constantly... I think I may add boredom to my "to do" list... It's a test, just to see if I can sit still for 5 minutes and just be. Just quiet, just alone, just me... Maybe then I'll find what it is that motivates me.
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